I've been oddly emotional over the past week or so.
And I think I've finally worked out why. The end is almost here. House airs its final episode tonight, and I have to be honest, in some small way, and it’s almost funny to think about, but I am in the final year of an English degree because of this bloody television show – which is bloody crazy. I started writing because I got so invested in this show, and through writing, I decided to undertake a seriously life-changing commitment. So I quit my job of ten years, and pursued an English degree – in part, thanks to a TV show. Utterly ridiculous. To be fair, I had the confidence of youth pushing me but somehow it proved to be one of the best decisions of my life. Because of a TV show!!
You know, there’s something utterly compelling about House, the character, so compelling that you have to be a part of it somehow. So much so, that I can imagine in ten years from now, when the show is a distant twinkle in the eye of the TV networks, I may find myself trawling the internet for old fan fiction that might be still knocking around (or very recently written – I have no doubt) just to see him again.
I don’t think the ‘fans’ should just be happy that the show has existed this long and not be critical. I’m sorry, but the middle of this show’s run just plain sucked. You have to blame the writers – and I do. They made some fucking appalling decisions. Getting rid of his first team of ducklings so early in the run was probably the biggest mistake with retrospect. I stopped watching. I had to. I loved that cantankerous bastard, but shit got Old! And from what I’ve seen of this final season – yikes. I’m trying to be positive, so I’m not going to bash, but…yikes. I suppose with the last couple of episodes it’s almost getting back on form. I actually think Jesse Spencer in particular is this show’s secret weapon, and always has been. He is massively underrated as an actor. Chase is still completely believable and entirely watch-able. More so than House in some respects, because he’s become such a cartoon, and so predictable - you can count down the time before a pun lands – you know how his face is going to look as he says it - before he says it. But, you could run Chase MD now and I’d watch, because Chase is still interesting to me. He has a life ahead of him that would be very interesting to watch. I can’t say that about any other character that is still in the show, including House, because as much as I love him, it is time. And yet something about that character has always drawn me back, time and time again. I can’t say I’ve seen every episode in a series since around season five or six, but I’ve always checked back in now and again – just to see what was going on. Because this show changed my life. Which is ridiculous! but it's true. And when I did check back I always laughed at something. Even if it was just at how bad the POTWs acting was. I still think the show’s first couple of seasons were truly some of the best TV I’ve ever seen, and they’re still to be bettered by a network show.
So, I just had to say, to House M.D – thanks. You’ve made me laugh, cry, and everything in between. You have frustrated the shit out of me with your silly plots, unbelievable medicine, pointless cardboard characters (Taub, 13 I’m looking at you) and jump the shark moments. But you have had me since episode one. I am genuinely moved that tonight the final episode will air. I don’t even follow the show anymore, but just knowing it was ticking along somewhere in the world, made the world a little tiny bit better for some reason.
I sit my exams in three weeks, and then I have 9 months left until I complete my degree. So, what I really want to say is thank you for making me a better me House MD. I know without a doubt if you hadn’t inspired me to write obsessively for years, I probably would never have started this degree in the first place.
And let’s face it, we’ve all been in a situation since we saw that very first episode, involving an idiot. It may have been at work, or the coffee shop down the road, or it may even (probably) be someone you know well, or a member of your family! And you’ve thought - as this idiot is talking to you, and while pondering on your response – what would House do? ; )
PPS: And of course thanks for Cameron. A character whose emotional make-up was composed entirely of sunshine and moonbeams. That is something the world needs.